Most of the time, I’m the one who’s always giving out and getting nothing in return. I know it’s a nice gesture, “it’s better to give than to receive” kinda shit.. but once in a while, I need to gain something from what I’m doing.

For example, and I know this sounds so materialistic.. but just last Christmas party that I had with my friends, everyone else had their gifts to open except for me. Yea, I got a pang of jealousy not having something to open while staring at people around me getting something that they want. Sheesh, I even brought a big bag of presents for them. And I still don’t have my presents. Hah.

What else? Every time we have someone’s birthday coming up, I’ve been pitching out money to buy them extravagant gifts. I probably won’t be getting the same on mine.

And lastly, I love sending out encouraging messages. But I don’t receive them back. All I’m asking for is “Thank you! That’s so sweet of you! I’m motivated now” instead of a lame “thanks” or “I love you” that I hear everyday.

UGHHHH. I know this is so petty. I hate that I would even post this, but I’m getting sick of it. I’m sorry, but I need more recognition this year.